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Ruptured

by NahBo

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1.
Download 00:58
This is computer music.
2.
Figure 03:31
Intro: “Y’know, sometimes I feel like I was born with a leak, and any goodness I started with just slowly spilled out of me and now it’s all gone. And I’ll never get it back in me. It’s too late.” - Bojack Horseman Chorus: No one can touch me here Keeping my crutches near Let me make myself clear I just want to dance, my dear Recovery is slow You’ll never know (no, no) V1: I’m in recovery Yeah, I’m an alcoholic Sinking all my shit Thinking this is it Praying I don’t stay catatonic Used to be a Fun Guy Picking my shrooms by the roadside Tripping always lit Thinking this is it I don’t wanna live I don’t wanna die Freeze. Now, breathe. All this thinking makes me wanna sneeze What’s the fucken point? Roll another joint Living ain’t a motherfucking breeze Say we’ve got it easy When all these dudes are still sleazy I don’t give a fuck I am going up I don’t need a cup Do you hear me? V2: I’m on the high ground Or am I upside down? I don’t need salvation I just wanna feel all the sensations You wanna know me? Levitate and listen NahBo back in the kitchen Cooking up some fancy fiction Can you smell that burning friction? I don’t need a lecture Basic conjecture I’m flying high Just feeling fine Oh shit this facade is fractured I don’t even know me Fuck this whole goddamn scene You want a clown to make sounds when they’re down Well, bitch, I’m up in the clouds
3.
Chorus: My lineage is both great and Terrible and so I am Reminded by my name It’s a string that wraps around my neck And ties me to the ship decks That came and stole the tongues and stories So I’d never be found again But, I am not lost I am here I am there I am everywhere And nowhere Just like my name Verse: This name string straps me to my ancestors Both pillagers, and pillaged All I want is to fill my mouth All I want is to fill my lungs All I want is to fill my heart But I’m choking on the land that made me My blood is the rivers My blood is the lakes My blood is the ocean My blood is this place But blood from both sides Resides behind my eyes And when they close death cries No citizen of the human race Mixed-race face has no place I am not human to them NahBo, I am alien I exist beyond the shackles of my limbs My body is unlike my kin So I am their shame I am to blame We’re not the same I am the shame I am to blame It’s in my name We’re not the same What’s in a name? What’s in a name?
4.
“The question of justice has concerned me greatly of late. And so I say to any creature who may be listening: There can be no justice, so long as laws are absolute. Life itself is an exercise in exceptions.” - Captain Jean-Luc Picard (Star Trek: The Next Generation)
5.
Force 03:18
Intro: "As far as I can make out, edgy occurs when middlebrow, middle aged profiteers are looking to suck the energy, not to mention spending money, out of the 'youth culture.' So, they come up with this fake concept of seeming to be dangerous, when every move they make is the result of market research and a corporate master plan." - Daria Chorus: No, you can't stop me now I am too proud If you stand in my way I'll step around No, you can't stop me now I am too loud You can't stop this love V1: Coming out the gate with some hard shit Follow up, come late I don't give a shit All I want is a party Communist Wanna get shit done Gonna write a list Can't stop me now I am too proud I'm a leftist, baby Say it loud I'm a loser and a bad bxtch I'm a loser and a sad wxtch Tino Rangatiratanga Maintain your mana I've got a Maori father, Samoan mother Tino Rangatiratanga That's some good shit I get strength from my tupuna That shit's legit V2: I tend to be a lone wolf Not by choice It's the market, baby The consumer's voice Capitalist greed creates the need for isolation Not just physically, but mentally with no emotions I don't want some fake relations There are boarders round our nations Cutting off the poor and broken Doesn't count if you only take tokens You can read a story Dreams are free and full of glory But reality is testing me This shit is getting boring
6.
Slow Down 03:12
“Jeff: Aunty! How come I have to move to the city with my mum and my eight dads? Aunty: Better T.V. reception, boy. And we don’t have any more land for you to play on! Jeff: How come? Aunty: The bloody thieving colonialists stole it all! Can you say that, boy? Bloody thieving colonialists? Jeff:... Aunty: That’s alright, boy. Just call them Pakeha.” - bro’Town Chorus: I don’t want to place blame on you But you know there are things you can do And I don’t wanna wait for the world to catch up I’ve had enough of these interruptions all the time I’m like… no. V1: You know what? You can miss me with the niceties I can tell that you don’t see me Just thinking about yourself You don’t feel all these atrocities Your younger brother never went to court for nothin’ He gets up and still says, “fuck ‘em” You’re just thinking about yourself So you won’t ever be my savior Vanilla always was my last choice for flavour What’s with this complex? A weird flex? First a wave of high fructose mayo comes ashore Picks apart the culture, starts another war Brings around a famine that collapses into drought Then forces in a system that fills babies up with doubt Takes a note of problems, then blames them on the people Getting likes on instagram will never make us equal You know what? I hope this is intimidating Because your virtue signals come off as incriminating V2: You know what? You can miss me with the niceties Coz I know given the chance you’d call the cops on me The prison system is just repackaged slavery Black power still rising up Now that is bravery We live in a world with endless information So study up on human rights before your next vacation You hear me, Karen? Your ancestors were trash. And I’ll keep saying that until the system turns to ash.
7.
Woof 02:41
Chorus: I don't need a rifle I don't need a glock All I need is pen and pad With seconds on the clock There's a mind between these eyes And it's beautiful But if you cross me I'll show you just how powerful My intellect is You can't accept it I'm so perceptive And you can't say shit Wanna bring me down? Well baby take a number I'm a dragon That has woken from its slumber V1: Parliamentary politics are a fucking joke Voting centre-left doesn't make you woke Cindy faking promises I wish she'd fucking choke Every time she speaks I feel like I'm having a stroke People seem relieved because she isn't Key But her only concern is the economy Never trust a white woman Never trust a man Never trust the boys in blue to come up with a plan V2: I am breathing ice coz I'm cool, calm and collected Fuck 'em if they're nice, but refuse to be corrected You hear that? I said, fuck 'em if they're nice, but refuse to be corrected Whiteys always crying when I call them on their shit Weaponise their tears and say I'm just a bitch Cancel me again to try and force my silence Little do they know I grew up surviving violence
8.
Herstory 05:08
V1 Marginalised, fetishised, criticised For the sweet curve of my thighs Or the shape of my unforgiving eyes, or the colour of my skin Can’t speak for my whole kin But, fuck, is it annoying When the only questions that you have refer to my origins. Yup. Coz looking back at my herstory All that I can see is diligence, intelligence And hard working men and women My mother would’ve told me to Never ever give in, or give up So I won’t hold back I’m picking up the slack Won’t take your crap Yeah, why you so surprised by my IQ Brown boo beating you Yes I’m first in line I won’t apologise for taking up the Space and time that I’m entitled to Just as much as you. So let me give you a clue It might seem a little extreme But there’s worse on your t.v. screen. For instance, working every day in this white world White washed, might hurl But it’s alright coz I’m not “brown brown,” right? Wrong. Blue collar jobs, just trying to achieve Yeah, that’s how it seems Coz I’ve never seen a polynesian lawyer make it big on the big screen And that’s fucked. V2 Can’t see the sky Coz I am trapped by this glass ceiling. I’m Always reaching, ever reaching, but never breaching No, never breaching This self-fulfilling prophecy of being property These thoughts aren’t just my own Or my only ones Can’t settle this with bombs or guns We need a conversation, an open dialogue A situation where The voice of the people who need help can be heard By those in power And yes, that’s you Upper-middle class white dudes Shut your privileged mouths for a minute and listen, yup My place reaches further than the corners of your kitchen I’m a fiend And there’s so much more to me than is seen Or deemed worthy Yeah, it might be great that I’m curvy But I am more than exotic Or some erotic play by play And I’m sick of being catcalled each and every single day So open your eyes and analyse It is time for us to rise All i’m asking for is that you help me fight For some motherfucking equal rights, man. Fuck!
9.
Other Side 01:46
“We haven’t spoken to anyone else for thousands of years, so we started talking to ourselves.” - Morla, the Ancient One (The NeverEnding Story)
10.
Wide Eyed 03:14
Chorus: Earth centre me Bent by the breeze Tears down my cheeks The water in me Becoming steam You won’t believe We find our peace In the rivers V1: Start walking, no more talking Not even goodbye I nearly died Eyes lock down the street I’m frozen where I stand Quick, turn. Don’t run. No one understands I’ve got a past like a Pink Batt Always on my back Memories close by when I react I’ve lost track of the context What is coming next Will I mess with the rhyme scheme The timing, vibing, chime in Fine dining Coat my throat with the spirits Aitu in me push me to spin it, admit it Thought that I was smart Thought I knew enough Thought I was so tough (haha) Learning never ends You have gotta work Even if it hurts (hahaha) V2: I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired Sick of acting like I am required Sick of all these selfish men who expect to be admired Talking so much shit and saying nothing How inspired I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired Sick of being told what to desire Sick of being stuck in a rut It is dire Sick of feeling like my fucking mind is on fire
11.
Wrinkle 03:18
Chorus: Think that I’ll go away I need to be free of this shit Think I’ll take a holiday Do you want to come with me to escape? V1: I’m sick of being so damn jaded I’m in my 20s I should really just be faded But something is wrong with this democracy Sipping on hypocrisy, make us a mockery So I keep trying to escape Tryna prove there’s more to my life than these mistakes Find a place where I can play the game and win it Hit the pause button and breathe for just a minute V2: I can’t believe the drama of it all Pick myself up every time I fall Getting tired of the rat race Tired of crying, tryna save face Holding on to any semblance of place I need to walk away from this toxicity All the people in the scene tied to complicity They said that they believe me But when I reached out for some help they’d rather leave me
12.
Out Of Tune 03:00
[No words. Just “oo”.]

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A release; a letting go; a shedding. A time to start again.

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released August 27, 2021

Written, performed, and produced by NahBo
Mastered by Stephen Horsley

Thanks to Hayley Fisher from Empty Goon Records for the constant support and help with my releases. Arohanui ki a koe e hoa.

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NahBo Wellington, New Zealand

Astronesian native, NahBo, is sad about colonisation, then makes beats about it.

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